October 16th, 2004


"but it's still cold..I think.."

It has been chilly, well, downright almost cold the past two days.
I had to get out a winter blanket last night. And I don't know what was in it, but it made me sooo stuffy! And it's a heavy blanket so it is crudhing the giant stuffed clownfish ^_^

I was supposed to be at the Urasenke Headquarters today, but it was cancelled and so I am at college talking to my mom on AIM^^

For one of the first times in my life, I am slowly being able to imagine things concretely. Usually when I day dream, it's very idealistic and not much actual "form" or "experience" is connected to it. It's more hazy like a dream.
But I can actually think about some time and feel like I am there - rather than just get sadly nostalgic about it. So sometimes I think about home - but intead of getting depressed, it can be amusing or comforting. It's pretty fun. But it shows how powerful the mind can be - and scarier, still, is I have no idea how the mind *does* work? I mean, how do all those neurons and cells translate into thoughts and dreams? Someone said once: "Making things is fraught with terror..." soemtimes it *is* scary how we make simple thoughts in our heads and yet some complex and amazing processes are at work for it to happen.
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