January 17th, 2007

Hosokawa Gracia


Today has many facets. Let me take one at a time.

1. Put in my place.
I went to get the mail and ran into a new employee (new to me, at least). He said hello, I said good morning. I was a bit shy and was in the middle of a thought, so my words came out a bit hesitantly. He turned and said, I can't believe that tiny voice came from you!
My reply: "Hmm, whoops!"

I suppose I do have a light voice considering I am not small of stature or frame. It reminded me of how small I feel in situations of professionalism. There are many people in the world, and many positions, but I am not meant to be a manager or a leader. I will continue to direct myself in humility. Of course, being humble doesn't mean I have to be weak, I reminded myself. Yes, I have a lot to learn, and graduate school has plunged me into a world of people so very different from myself. They look to success and I look to simply do my best at whatever is put before me. I am not picky. (Something which irritates many people!)

At least it gives me the ability to eat three varieties of fish eggs with rice for breakfast!

2. Feast of sprouts.
My boss threw us a special luncheon party today! Ah, the food was delicious...egg-salad sanwiches on croissants, sprouts sandwiches on wheat, potato salad, cookies, and drinks. There were even lovely orange carnations dressing up the table. The whole department enjoyed it. Also, my boss told the two GAs and me about her history as a librarian. It is really admirable :) I am always curious to learn how people end up where they are...

3. My heart yelled!
I am never one to speak up in class. Today, though, during our lecture on IT, someone brought up the news about the morse code requirement being eliminated from the secondary license for amateur radio. And when it said it, my mind clicked, and my heart lunged itself to the table.

In the form of a fist.

I really didn't mean to do that... It was a totally reflexive action. The learning of morse and the use of telegraph are so dear to me that I acted in spite of myself. I have a goal to someday learn these arts, but I haven't had the time to begin. Telegraphy haunts my memories at Gettysburg and my dreams at night...no, literally! So, anyway, that is my apology for scaring my fellow classmates with my fervor.

Come to mention it, these new converging technologies, DRM, and other such things truly spark concern. If all goes digital, and someone takes the keys away, then isn't that it for us? Talk about the power of information! And I am involved in the monster as it rises from its slumber.

Sometimes I do feel as if I were standing idly in the path of a great terror, an Atlantean priestess who has leapt and sunken into the wrong arms and watching it as it happens from the future.

4. Given a new place.
Today I read a book about museum store management and worked on my project in the CLIS lounge. Afterward, I worked on a letter for Joe. I was surprised by a visitor! The representative from CLIS came and...offered me a graduate assistantship?!

I was stunned. And I was thrilled!

I am now the TA for Information Technology. :)
I loved the class and learned more than I ever thought. Now I get the chance to relive it!^^ More css, more xml, more IT fun! I am looking forward to helping students with html, because I know both how frustrating and how rewarding it can be. Also, the professor is really nice, so I don't have to worry about that. :) I am curious to learn all kinds of things from him about his research and the trends in the field. Now, at last, I can surround myself with contacts, widen my network, and absorb all kinds of geeky information. Maybe I will get a glimpse through the door to the real work of information technologies... How exciting^^

Genesis 22:14: Jehovah Jireh
וַיִּקְרָא אַבְרָהָם שֵׁם-הַמָּקוֹם הַהוּא, יְהוָה יִרְאֶה, אֲשֶׁר יֵאָמֵר הַיּוֹם, בְּהַר יְהוָה יֵרָאֶה