I am sitting here with my windows open, airing out my apartment. I feel rather refreshed by the warm temperatures and the break in the hectic schedule. Also, talked about refreshment in Bible study this morning. We finally reached John 7:37 - "On the last day, that great day of the feast [Feast of Tabernacles], Jesus stood and cried out, saying, 'If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink.'" As the water was provided from the rock for Israel for 40 years wandering in the desert, so water is given to all who will come. As God dwelt with the people in the desert, so God offers to pour out His Spirit upon those who are willing to receive it. What else in life can give fulfillment that lasts?
Over lunch today, our pastor talked to me about the Parable of the Talents (Matthew 25:14-30). In it, a master gives his servants money while he goes off on a journey. While he is gone, two of the servants put that money to work to gain more, but one hides his in a hole he dug. When the master returns, he is pleased with the first two servants but angry with the last. The parable says that Christians need to put their knowledge to work. If we sit around and do the same things we did before, how is this achieving any interest on the investment?
Knowledge is a dangerous gift.
Isn't it that which got us killed?
It is also that which catalyzes rebirth.
(Genesis 2:17 / Romans 12:2)
So much has changed in my character over the last few years and months. I was reading livejournal posts from the past and it was as if I was staring a stranger in the face. I thought I was mature and I thought I was not ignorant.
So what brought me back around? What stirred up the waters?
I. One was a lingering sense of dissatisfaction:
"I've come to a point where I am happy with my life, and yet take a lot for granted because I feel so content. What did the writer say - love was something you feel when in lack?... I miss a lot and wonder if I found the balance or just swung from pessimism to ignorance. I want to be a little more thoughtful, but it's easy to get lazy." -July 4, 2005
II. Second was an intense curiosity into Old Testament things courtesy of:
"Well, I studied and worked again today. Like every day this semester! I did take a break to watch Indiana Jones, though! :) It was fun^^ I would go into more detail on the wonderful weather of today, and the tasty-weird servo food (broccoli and some strange fried stuff), and such but I am too tired of thinking. I can just hear Indy's dad saying: 'Why are you sitting there resting when we're so near the end?' But, hey, wait, we watched Raiders, not the Last Crusade today...? Wheee Belloq! Oh and Indy's expressions are the best^^ " -May 6, 2006
The vague dissatisfaction alone just made me uncomfortable. The driven curiosity is what got me working!
How can work get done without working?
But who wants to do work unless it is fun and good? :p