April 18th, 2007


Daily Bread - Psalm 22

Daily Bread

Title: Trust that gives hope
Psalm 22
Key Verse 1

אֵלִי אֵלִי, לָמָה עֲזַבְתָּנִי

This is a Psalm which speaks of Jesus' death on the cross in vivid ways, prophesying what would take place. It is a Psalm of pleading, of groaning. King David is crying out to God, "Why have you abandoned me?" In verse 14, it says that his heart within him has "turned to wax; it has melted away within me." There seems no hope any longer. There seems to be no answer from on high.

Yet, the Psalm in verses 19-21 turns back to God, seeking rescue. David turns his cries of anguish into prayers for deliverance.

Reading further, his Psalm changed into one of praise for God! The Daily Bread reads: "He cried to God day and night, and it seemed that God did not answer him. ... He trusted God anyway." David knew that in the end, all justice would be settled. That the man who trusted himself would have no hope beyond himself; but that the man who clung to God would be saved by God. He believed in the life after death where he would see God face to face. So even when life was at the most miserable time, when he was threatened to rebuke God (as Job was) and to surrender to his enemies, King David held fast. And he was given the inheritance of Abraham and the hope of everlasting life. David displays that "joy in all circumstances" because he is close to God and knows God's character. May I also come to know and trust God like this!

One Word: Trust God, no matter what

Class news - LCSH, JTables, sleepiness

I have been so sleepy lately and I don't know why. I slept in today until 9:30, but even after this I felt like taking a nap at 3:00 this afternoon. So I did. Now it is 8:30 and I am sleepy again. So strange.

Tomorrow's plan is to go on campus early, steal possession of the LCSH books, and catalog! Also, I may stop by the table ministry if I get free of the stacks in time. I had the time to start my third project for Java today. I got as far as the TableCellRenderer and then got stuck. I think I need to pass an argument to my method, but I am not sure what that would be... I emailed the professor, so hopefully she will have ideas. Once I get that fixed, I need to fight with the I/O from the BufferedReader. That is the part that scares me! The rest will just be icing on the cake. Hopefully I can finish in efficient time so I can get more work done on the final project for that class. Also, I keep putting off my paper for 670, but I really need to hammer out a draft of that this week. Finally, there is always the database waiting for me. It lurks in the shadows, haunting me! Once that database is done, I will wipe the dust from my sandals and move on to the next town.

My roommate and I had sushi today for lunch across the street. I was lazy and got plain old cucumber and avocado sushi, but next time I am going for the fun stuff! It's a bit expensive to do very often, though. Then again, when I only eat one large meal a day, I suppose I could spare it :p To my pleasant surprise, I found all kinds of healthy snacks at the Union building -- banana chips, bags of chocolate covered nuts, raisins, dried apples, fresh trail mix, and much more. I will definitely spend the 50 cents on these instead of candy bars from the vending machine!

Upon all this, thoughts of upcoming plans are creeping into my mind. Hmmm. I still have to find my niche...
When I start to feel overwhelmed by such ideas, I need to remind myself that even my temporary work now is not without merit. This is a stop in the adventure, though perhaps a little precarious. David the shepherd and David the king both glorified God by what they did - because David did his work with a heart of love and humility. It is not 'what' so much as 'how'. Oh, I keep reminding myself. Sometimes I wish others would remind me of this, too, since I tire myself out. Then I remember all the people that do. How foolish is man, am I, to grow so selfish and unsatisfied. Why do I keep seeking out that which I don't have and boast that I do not need it?