July 15th, 2007


Daily Psalm - Psalm 13

Daily Psalm
Title: Remembering and Predicting
Psalm 13

This is a short Psalm of 6 verses.
Through the first four verses, King David pours out his anguish in vivid language.

How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I bear pain in my soul,
and have sorrow in my heart all day long?
How long shall my enemy be exalted over me?
(verses 1-2)

There have been days where I felt hopeless, too. One was when I was lost in Croatia during my first week there. I was 16 years old without a cell phone or a map or a clue. Then, there are the slow-grinding pressures of school and work that accumulate from day to day and can weigh very heavily upon the soul. Still, I have never been pursued as a fugitive as King David was. I have never been in war and never been close enough to touch the robe of one who sought to kill me. No doubt David suffered so much more than I can understand.

Yet, King David is strong enough to end the Psalm with praise for his God.

But I trusted in your steadfast love;
my heart shall rejoice in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord,
because he has dealt bountifully with me.
(verses 5-6)

I wonder, when I look at this and when I see the example of Job - how can their hearts have the strength to utter such praises? Even when I am burdened by little worries and insignificant bothers, I find it hard to lift myself from despair and gloom. How can they rise above these pressures?

I think King David explains how he is able to do this.
He "trusts" and "remembers."

In order to trust someone, it is necessary to know someone.

King David knew God and walked with Him very closely. He had experienced God's mercies and recognized His hand working in his life. It is when he remembered these things that he could trust God. It is when he recalled what God had done that he could sing praise.

This is a lesson to me, as well. God has blessed me, too.
For me, He has made a way, he has broken a curse, he has given me the light of life.
Also, I need to look and see how God has blessed generations before me. I can learn if I study. Once I know God, through study and reflection, I can then trust Him and find the peace and joy that comes from the knowledge and Spirit of God.

One Word: Remembrance leads to trust; Trust leads to joy
Sant'Apollinare Nuovo 2, Sant'Apollinare Nuovo

Summer conferences, EMPM

I am really excited!
It looks like I may be able to make both Buckit Week and and UBF Summer Bible Conference next week! I better get those papers finished fast so I can clean, do laundry, pack, and prepare. :)

Also, since I have no class next week, I am going to attend early morning (5:30 am) prayer meetings. I have never gone before, since it would require me to shift my sleeping and homework schedule. This is also exciting! I need to take prayer more seriously and this is one way to begin! Yay!
still shot, Maria

The way it used to be


"What is it that you do here at the temple?"
"Why, we conduct services and study."
"Because it is right."

"What else do you do here?"
"Oh, that's it. That's all I have to do. It's enough.
Don't you think it's great? I am so happy I can work here and get away from those outside."

"You compare yourself to those outside this place. The more important question is: do you compare yourself to the One who waits inside the veil?"
"I have nothing to fear."
"1 John 1:8"
"I know I am not perfect."
"But do you acknowledge that you are responsible? Or, do you admit that your acts are more than can simply be overlooked? Do you recognize the price of your life?"
"Hey, I didn't do anything!"

"Then, tell me. How do you live?
You stay hidden here, halfway between others and God, locked within yourself. You cannot serve God with self-righteous sacrifices. Read I John 2:11. Read not for knowledge but for wisdom. 1 Corinthians 8:1.

And look. Look and see.
Do your prayers only satisfy yourself or do they reach out to those in need? Luke 18:9. Is the heart of the shepherd, the fisherman, the unworthy servant - are these your heart? Remember why he came. Matthew 9:13.

What is most important to you?
Around what does your mind revolve? What secrets do you try to hide? What ideals do you have in mind? "Are they for His glory...or for yours?"

Answer me.
And do not give me words - give me the answer.
Without words, can you give me an answer?"



"Finally. This is appreciation. This is joy. This is good."
"It is indeed. But wait, what of the depth?"

"The closer I look, the more dim it becomes, like a star."
"When you look with mortal eyes.
When you look with the eyes of the mind, though, you see it clearly, for you know it. When you learn of the star, you know that it is massive, burning with the flames of the ages, and mighty in power. The more you know of the star, the more you should see of it."

"So why is it that I see nothing when I look closely?"
"It is because you are looking at nothing (mu)."
"But I have looked all around and this is all I have found."
"That because you were not really looking in the first place. Look again."

From Pharisee to Gentile. From Gentile to be grafted back into the tree.