July 31st, 2010

walk with God, pasture, Psalm 23

A choice of allegiance

Sometimes after I really irritating incident, I walk around the office growling for the next few hours. Sometimes after someone says something snippy and condescending to me, I turn defensive and edgy. Sometimes after I discover some problem with my work, I hang my head in gloom and defeat. During times like these, I feel that the only appropriate response is to react in these ways. Anything else would not be fitting to the situation. I need to be angry, upset, and sad in reaction.

But this is because I only see one side of reality.

"You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over." Psalm 23:5

Those who hurt me, situations that upset me, my anger, my sadness - all these are my enemies. But in the presence of my enemies God prepares a table for me to sit down and enjoy a feast with Him. In the presence of my enemies and the Lord, who will I choose to commune with? I need to forgive those who sin against me, deny my own desire to serve the gods of gloom and anger, and leap into the arms of the Lord who loves me and has prepared delights for me to enjoy both now and forever. Amen!

Romans 8:1, 34
"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus...Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died - more than that, who was raised to life - is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us."
Horseback, Fly, Ride

Questions on Comm, Self, Perspective

In response to olifhar's post here: questions about communication, being, perspective, identity

What part of being with people you like do you enjoy the most?
They make me feel perfectly comfortable. I don't feel like I need to do or not do anything. I can kick my feet up on the couch without even thinking. Collapse )
Minoan Doves


Today: woke up lazily around 10 am, prayed, cleaned downstairs, cooked lunch and dinner, washed dishes, memorized one Bible verse associated with a new prayer request, did 3 loads of laundry, organized my desk upstairs, posted 2 lj entries I've been meaning to get online, studied Russian pronunciation here, wrote a draft of a letter to a brother overseas, played the mandolin, got tired at 11 pm and went to bed.

I've been trying to account for my time more effectively, and today I felt quite content with what was accomplished. (I do admit, that I am still behind on responding to 2 or 3 emails...oops!) May God continue to be the Master of my life and help me to dust away all the things that needlessly weigh me down and eat up my time. I must say, activities like cleaning my house and exercising the spiritual gift of encouragement make me feel so much more satisfied than the job that is listed on my resume.