April 4th, 2011

born again, nicodemus, john 3

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I'm so thankful for this past week. Yesterday evening we shared the Lord's Supper at church and it was a wonderful time of worship and joy. We ended with "Hark, I Hear the Harps Eternal!" and how sweet a blessing it was to sing among those who love the Lord and eagerly wait for His return :)

So far, the Torah study has been very exciting! I still feel as though my mind is a circling nebula around grand matters such as history, God's "holiness", and salvation. There is light, but there is also cloud in my mind. It is all swirling, moving, discontent to lay stagnant, and pregnant with mystery. While I'm confident in God's truth and goodness, my mind continues its ongoing excavation to reveal the edges - the scope and shape - of these things. Today in a quick exploration of "nephesh", I became a bit fearful of losing my grip on the gospel; but I clung to the knowledge that my Father is trustworthy and sure. Child-like faith can live in harmony with curiosity, so long as it can finally find rest in the Father's arms at the end of the day.

"LORD, my heart is not haughty,
Nor my eyes lofty.
Neither do I concern myself with great matters,
Nor with things too profound for me.
Surely I have calmed and quieted my soul,
Like a weaned child with his mother;
Like a weaned child is my soul within me.
O Israel, hope in the LORD
From this time forth and forever." Psalm 131

And so, I dig. I seek. I look. I long. Collapse )