April 11th, 2011

the cross, cross

Christ Jesus came to save sinners

1 Timothy 1:15 - "This is a faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners..."

"Ye who think of sin but lightly nor suppose the evil great
here may view its nature rightly, here its guilt may estimate." -Stricken, Smitten and Afflicted

I remember back in 2006-2007 how I wrestled with the cross. When we came to study the crucifixion of Jesus, I felt extremely uncomfortable and very unsettled. My mind tried, like a bead of dew, to roll off this edge or that edge of the leaf, so it might avoid slowly sliding down the length of it. I veered from the "affliction of the afflicted one". I tried to hide from the fullness of it. I had trouble accepting that my petty sins deserved that! On August 30, 2006 I wrote: "I Peter 2:24 says that Jesus 'Himself bore our sins in His own body on the tree, that we, having died to sins, might live for righteousness...' My own sins? Such miserable, petty, weak, offensive abominations? I cannot fully grasp this..." Collapse )