November 19th, 2013

jedi megan

Thoughts of the morning

God knows me.
I get to see my boyfriend during Thanksgiving! I'm so excited! :D
Baruch shem k'vod malchuto l'olam va ed. (Blessed be the name of His glorious kingdom forever and ever.)
It's difficult for me to identify my motivations. They just seem to be. I don't know why.
It was so cute when my Chespin Pokemon (named Spock) looked at me during the battle and said that he wanted more time to spend with me. He knows that I will feed him pokepuffs and pet his head, hehe! Chespin, you are so cute!
This Joy Tea tastes very much like the Himalayan Spleandor I used to get. yum.
Tonight I have to cook. And remember to calculate utilities. Must...remember...
I'm not hungry...oh, probably because the black tea had caffine. oops.
*taps foot*
I love the colors at this time of year - bright yellow, orange, dark red, brown. The skies are also beautiful.
Report - update data tables, import special data, update graphs, include screenshots, update text...etc etc.
Uh, is this helping me clear my head during my work break? I'm not sure... but if I look for pretty things online (like pictures of Pokemon or hats or baseball news), then I will want to buy stuff :(
I think I'll try something else during the last few minutes of my break, though I'm not sure what yet! My head feels cluttered.
I want a Chespin hat :3
autism

The start of an image map for "interests"

I'm charting the first vague markings of an image map. I'm not sure how these fit together...but I think they do somehow.

-Details
-Creating a big picture based on details, but usually only for a limited and well-known scope
-Tendency to give up when I don't think I can know something exhaustively (for example, politics)
-Comprehensiveness

-Line in art
-One peice of information follows the next
-Follower
-One step at a time
-Stims of following lines with my eyes or grooves with my fingers
-Watching electrical lines from the car window
-Techno music
-Water, especially the sunlight patterns on the ocean

-Observing the flow of a crowd so I can navigate safely through
-Lost in conversation because I can't "see" the flow of the other person's mind and thus I don't know where they are going/where I should go
-Fear of hurting others / fear of bumping into others / fear of doing the wrong thing

-Hyperactivity / overstimulation
-Sensitivity
-Anxiety
-Compulsion / obsession

-Concept and image
-Non-verbal problem solving / matrix reasoning

-If it's not a special interest, I have no interest in the topic (and even special "interests" come and go in cycles)

"my eyes dart from webpage to webpage looking for something to latch onto so I can commence climbing" 2012-12-11
"When I find myself waiting with nothing to do, I can't sit still" 2010-06-27
"All of a sudden, one great thing after another comes to mind and I feel enthusiastically compelled to share each of them in turn in-the-stream-of-consciousness that leaves no space for interruption!" 2013-01-18