Am I wearing myself out by milling around or am I waiting patiently?
When shown a picture of the Pharisees and one of Simeon, I immediately want to say that I am more like the latter, but... It is disturbing where I fall.
It is a means to keep me from feeling proud of that which I cannot lay claim to. For what right do I have to anything? All I receive, the friendship, the thoughts, the cards, the service, all are undeserved. What good have I done to others? And, even if I have done good, this goodness is not of me. Why? Because when I am put to the test, I fail.
I say that I am kind and patient.
Yet when Stamp Union is crowded, I mutter at others and push my way out of the chaos.
I say that I am not selfish.
Yet when I see a stranger with donuts, I conspire ways in my head to ask if I can have one.
Far be it from me, then, to claim that I am deserving of any sweet thing!
"Why do you call me good?" Jesus answered. 'No one is good—except God alone.'" Luke 18:19
This is why I must wait on my God. He alone is good and the source of all good things. Leave behind the broken cisterns, the water jug at the well.
That's what is so funny about God. Even though men are rebellious, He has Grace on them. He offers them freedom and sanctification, the right to call him a Father. What a crazy idea!
"For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. For it is written:
'I will destroy the wisdom of the wise;
the intelligence of the intelligent I will frustrate.'
Where is the wise man? Where is the scholar? Where is the philosopher of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world?" I Corinthians 1:18-20