awakeTitle: The LORD who saves
Psalm 3
You know, last year at this time I had this Psalm memorized. I was just beginning to really go back and read my Bible (well, the little pocket Bible that the Gideons gave me one year on campus). Since I wasn't sure how to pray, I thought I would read Psalms. And why just read them if I could memorize them and lock them in my heart? So I memorized the first four or so. Then I started forgetting them! I have found, though, that Scripture comes back to you so much quicker than other things. Even when I don't try to remember verses, they spring into my mind^^ The Holy Spirit at work, I think, since I don't have a good memory. I don't have a memory of the time before middle school.
Anyway...
I need this verse right about now. I need to find that peace, that deep sleep at night that comes through trusting God. I think faith means being sure of the outcome of things even in the midst of them. This is something I still can't do. And it's not because I doubt God, but myself. I don't know if I can finish this paper and it is really troubling me. Last night when I was resting from work I just had a moment of panic and cried for the first time in a while. Then I got a grip on myself and went to bed.
So, though I feel that I am growing more mature, I am still weak and scared and perfectionistic. I don't want to live a defeated life!
I cry aloud to the Lord, and he answers me from his holy hill. Selah
I lie down and sleep; I wake again, for the Lord sustains me.
I am not afraid of ten thousands of people who have set themselves against me all around. (verses 4-6)
I want to live this this! May I have trust in God and not run away from my work, being like Nehemiah and the remnant, even though they were taunted and threatened on all sides. I hope that my faith can grow stronger and deeper despite the "many [who] are saying to me, 'There is no help for you in God.' Selah" (verse 2)
One Word: Powerful assurance
