I really want to do God's work and fulfill a purpose beyond my own seeking. I love to devote myself fully to a project and by nature I work and stress very hard over these things. In my soul, I feel I am ready to devote myself to hard work for a good purpose. I am ready! Send me!
Listening to the testimony tonight, I was very encouraged. When she sought God, He made a way. He gave her a scholarship to study in America (she is from China) and then led her to here. Though she had a job offer to work in DC, she decided to instead complete her doctorate degree, as God had set her on that path. Now, 11 years later, she has completed her 700 page thesis and is a doctor! She gives all the glory to God, for she was overwhelmed with the work, yet somehow succeeded. Now, a job has been prepared for her where she will work very hard to teach and share the Good News. It is so exciting! God does really lead people in clear ways - I need only to seek His will. I need faith. Because prayers and seeking without faith is not pleasing to God and such a person is like a wave tossed by the sea (James 1:6).
I am not a shepherdess yet, but... I want to be!
Still, I have a lot of time to make up for, a lot of truth to take in, a lot to learn about this One I call upon as God. I need to learn to have an ongoing dialog with Him, praying at all times. I want to build this relationship. I know He knows and loves me - now I want to know and love Him. Also, I want to serve others! I want to live a life free from the prison of selfish thoughts where I can be attentive to the needs of others and helpful, a blessing to them. I want all of things things to be fulfilled in my life. I want to live as light and salt.
I want to work.