"But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own desires and enticed. Then, when desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, brings forth death. Do not be deceived, my beloved brethren." James 1:14-16
This is a sensation that I'm all too familiar with. Take this very day, for example. After church ended, my mind was bent on one goal - to find my friend from Germany so I could wish her well before she leaves. Meanwhile, other friends came to greet me and ask how they might pray for me. In the face of such merciful kindness, I instead could only sit impatiently, darting my glance about here and there anxiously. I should have rejoiced with thanks for this sisterly love; but instead, in my sinfulness, I could then only see those precious ones as an obstacle. This sort of attitude is very familiar and encroaches upon me whenever something imposes itself in the way of my goal.
I pray that the Lord would open my eyes to see my impatience, anxiety, and anger in light of their causes - what is the desire, the sinful desire, that has taken over my heart and causes me to live unthankfully and unkindly? May God shape my heart more and more into His image so that His desires might become my own and His holiness might take root in my heart and push out the sinfulness.