So far, the Torah study has been very exciting! I still feel as though my mind is a circling nebula around grand matters such as history, God's "holiness", and salvation. There is light, but there is also cloud in my mind. It is all swirling, moving, discontent to lay stagnant, and pregnant with mystery. While I'm confident in God's truth and goodness, my mind continues its ongoing excavation to reveal the edges - the scope and shape - of these things. Today in a quick exploration of "nephesh", I became a bit fearful of losing my grip on the gospel; but I clung to the knowledge that my Father is trustworthy and sure. Child-like faith can live in harmony with curiosity, so long as it can finally find rest in the Father's arms at the end of the day.
"LORD, my heart is not haughty,
Nor my eyes lofty.
Neither do I concern myself with great matters,
Nor with things too profound for me.
Surely I have calmed and quieted my soul,
Like a weaned child with his mother;
Like a weaned child is my soul within me.
O Israel, hope in the LORD
From this time forth and forever." Psalm 131
And so, I dig. I seek. I look. I long.
Books that I've been reading recently: When People are Big and God is Small (finished), The Gospel and Personal Evangelism (finished), The Christ of the Covenants (just started), Feasts of Jehovah (to read).
Personal activities this week: small group Bible study, prayer meeting, teaching an English class (woah, the grammar is weird this week!), cleaning the basement, cooking fish along with broccoli and potatoes, researching a language group in Africa, finishing memorization of the first chapter of Habakkuk, etc
Work activities this week: quarterly reporting, resolving code issues, resolving software performance issues, preparation for next week, etc
My Bible, my morning notebook with English and Hebrew scribbles, prayer notebook & prayer notes. The foot in the far right belongs to a T-Rex :3
The two big Bibles on the upper right are my Tyndale NT and Geneva Bible. yay! Ah, could there be a more appropriate soundtrack than E.S. Posthumus' Cartographer album for these days?
"Oh, satisfy us early with Your mercy,
That we may rejoice and be glad all our days!" Psalm 90:14
"Your fathers ate the manna in the wilderness, and are dead. This is the bread which comes down from heaven, that one may eat of it and not die. I [Jesus] am the living bread which came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever; and the bread that I shall give is My flesh, which I shall give for the life of the world." John 6:49-51