Megan (jehoshabeath) wrote,
Megan
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Find

Have you all seen Raiders of the Lost Ark? Do you remember the scene where Indy's team of diggers is working to find the ark and they hit something. Sallah says to his friend, "Indy, here, we've hit stone!" Indy tells them to clear it off and suddenly many hands come to dig, to clear away the sand, to uncover what's been buried. "Come on, find the edges-"

That's how I feel these days.

In the midst of the daily routine...! What's this? And suddenly my whole attention leaps to that place. I want to know what's there. I want to uncover its structure, discover the edges, discern where its substance begins and where it ends. I want to pick up this strange thing and examine it in the light. I want to drag it into my lab and examine it under a microscope. I want to engage it in conversation and learn what it is, when it was, what became of it, and what I can do now that I know these things. I want to know the thing. And then I want to put that knowledge to use.

So, lately I've been continuing my Akkadian studies (up to chapter 5), reading some books on God's covenants in Scripture, and investigating hobby/career options in the spare time when I'm not working, sleeping, eating, enjoying fellowship, or serving. I've been feeling the usual emotions - excitement, slight regret for not having started earlier, contentment in the Lord, slight despair that my efforts might be a waste of time, great desire that I might finally gain mastery over some knowledge/skill area, zeal to see where the new interest will lead, obliviousness to the boldness of my queries, curiosity into possibilities, eagerness to apply new knowledge, and simple raw curiosity.
Tags: aspergers, books, guilt, interests, language, me, stuff
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