Bible study this evening on Romans 1 was rich. I'm excited to pour effort into this new study with the help of my sisters, Lord-willing.
Work the past two days has been rather quiet.
I've registered for a first aid class with the Red Cross in October and have been poking at the world of emergency preparedness and emergency communications.
After all the random hobbies I've pursued, I still have yet to find my "place" as Herbert calls it. "Humans live best when each has his place to stand, when each knows where he belongs in the scheme of things and what he may achieve. Destroy the place and you destroy the person," he wrote in Heretics of Dune p 33. I've wrestled with that quotation for over ten years now. How I've sought for that "place" and never found it! How I've sought to clarify my identity in an ever-shifting self in an ever-shifting world. How deep I've dug to find that solid ground, how far I've walked to find that sacred spot. How hard I've worked to observe, learn, adapt, apply, fit, and achieve. But I still feel like an adventurer on the deck of a passing ship. The vanity grips me by the shoulders and rattles me: there is no such "place" apart from God! And in Christ, that place is already within you! (Luke 17:20-21, Jeremiah 2:13, Acts 10:45) So with Ecclesiastes 11:9 in mind, I will seek after these interesting things while, with His help, keeping my eyes on what is to come - judgment, full adoption in Christ, and the final establishment of my home.
In the knowledge of my "place" and the hope of my home, let me strive to take my eyes off myself and that endless quest for inner peace. Instead, overflowing with the loving-kindness of my God, let me seek to reach out and build others up. Let me set my hands to that good work - the establishment of the kingdom of God. My Father is redeeming the souls of fallen men and women. As He has lifted up my head, let Him use me as a means to do the same for the good of many and for the glory of the only One who is worthy.
"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness..." Matthew 6:33