Megan (jehoshabeath) wrote,

For River: Pain

River: *sits quietly* *folds paper rabbits*

"...problems with the intensity and management of emotions..." The Complete Guide to Asperger's Syndrome by Tony Attwood, page 129.

What about negative emotions? Unlike positive emotions, I don't feel like I have a way to express them. When I'm happy, I smile and giggle; but when I hurt... I feel stuck. I tend to work through these feelings slowly in solitude because if I try to express them to others, I just cry and stare.

I may daydream, but these are never set in the real setting which triggered the feelings. Some themes and concepts may be similar, but usually the story and characters in the daydream are quite different from the situation I've faced. Usually, the feelings are too strong for me to even daydream. More often I'll just sit in my room and cry or write or draw or build in Minecraft or listen to repetitive music. Sometimes I'll listen to the same movement over and over. I feel like yelling, but it would hurt too much to do that. I feel like talking it out, but I can't even find words for it. Negative emotions are overwhelming, as positive emotions are; but while I can express happiness, I struggle mightily to even begin to express anger, sadness, or pain.

(Third post reflecting on the video game "To The Moon")
Tags: aspergers, communication, grounding, pain, sad, tothemoon, video games

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