Even though I may be shy in conversation, I leap at the opportunity for adventure! So, one sunny day in DC, I hopped on board a little schooner with a smile. I was ready for training to become a member of the ship's crew! I didn't know a sail cover from a standing line, but I was eager to learn. I listened attentively as the crew showed me around and followed their lead as we washed the decks, hauled in the bumpers, and hoisted the sails. As we sailed down the river, I watched planes fly overhead, listened to the sound of the water lapping against the hull, and enjoyed the wide skies overhead. It was beautiful.
When it comes to experiences like these, my eagerness washes away any hesitation that I might have and I just fly! (Of course, I make mistakes along the way, but then I know what to do next time!) How is it that I can be so bold on these adventures and so...different the rest of the time? Why does the adventure feel more familiar to me than the everyday experience? I'm not sure. Is it my nervous system? They say that people on the autism spectrum are in a constant state of anxiety because their nervous systems don't easily transition from "alert" mode to "rest" mode. They say that autistic people can be very calm in emergencies because they're used to operating in that state, as everyday life feels like an emergency. Am I really this hyperactive all the time? Do adventures simply provide an opportunity to be my natural self? Or could it be that in adventures I'm just following instructions and observing as I explore; whereas, in typical life, there are no such clear instructions and explorations lead to awkwardness? Or is there some other explanation?
Well, I may not know the reason, but I know the reality. "She picks up her helmet and says to the droid, 'Let's go, G2-4T!' His binocular eyes turn to follow, but she's already hopped out the door. 'Wait for me!' he honks." 1/5/2013
(Tenth post reflecting on the video game "To The Moon")