Proserpina is learning to handle her armor. :)
In other words, even though I feel at the mercy of the world - a timid and passive victim - by God's grace, I am growing. I'm slowly, gradually confronting my fears and restrictions. Growing to stand in the midst of them and watch them pass by while I remain. Learning to take responsibility for myself, my feelings, and decisions. Leaning into them and watching them gradually, gradually become clearer. Those invisible, elusive, hard to see things. Stepping forward. Walking with God. Moving from victim to warrior. Wow, it's been a long journey to get to this point where I can just stand on my feet. "He will make me walk on my high hills."